11/1/11 , nice date , well now , de feeling is so mixed , complicated , hate , sad , emptiness , i dunno wad should i belive in , wad did i belive in , wad made me pushed so far , it was u , and now , i dunno wads gonna push me again , fuck it man , tot i was already matured , well im still childish , tot i had a chance , by waiting , and now , wad , i was like willing 2 wait for u for like 5 years or wad , why was i even confident bout it , de title of best guy friend , dun wanna say anymore , juz hope u are true bout your decision